funny how i was thinking of coming on here to blog abt crap but then i log on and i forget about what im going to write…o now i remember, life is a load of crap and im wishing i had already finished school so people can appreciate me more…it seems like people dont really care about me now but when it comes down to it and people are in trouble im the only one they can depend on
im thinking of moving out in about 3 years…i cant stand this crap anymore, i mean i would leave now but i have no where to go, so i might as well finish school first, get a job, save up some money and then move out…yet again ive lost my train of thought cuz freaken sister came into the room, in this house i have no damn privacy and when i leave to go some where i always get interrogated first before i can leave and my parents have major trust issues, i mean im hella old yet they still dont trust that when i say im going to a study group i go to study they assume that i go mess around with someone who doesnt exist…i already told them multiple times that i have to pass this freaken class that im taking or im going to have to wait one whole year before i can attempt to take the classes again, they still dont understand no matter how much i tell them…
all i can do now is do what i think is best for me and not care about what other people say or do…im going to turn the other way when people start talking to me thats how fed up i am with everyone around me

well im supposed to be studying since this morning but i just cant focus on anything at all…im going to try and study once again before the end of the night, i have to finish listening to at least 3 recordings before the end of the night then tomorrow is going to be crazy because i work and because my parents arent home so imma have to take care of the house…

omg i can’t believe i cant stop thinking about him…it’s strange i know to be thinking of someone who already has a girlfriend but i just don’t know what i’m thinking now a days…i think i’m going crazy but yeah it’s whatever right now…i guess i just need some time away from him to think straight first then ill decide…